Learning to be Content

One of the things any one of my friends or family can tell you is that I LOVE babies!!! I think it only took two or three months after Seth was born for me to start thinking about the next baby, things I would change during pregnancy, how the next delivery was going to go, etc. And as I was doing my Bible study for CBS this week I realized I have wasted so much time thinking about this. How many months of Seth's life have I wasted looking forward to the next child and not just enjoying him? It makes me sad to think about it.
 Yesterday I had my post-op visit with the doctor who did my hysteroscopy. We were talking about when I would be able to get pregnant again and he said that he would prefer that we wait at least 3 months after I finish the 30 day estrogen pill that I'm on. At first I was disappointed, now I'm really happy. I'm looking forward to these last few months that I have with Seth, with our little family of three. Just us in our little house.
 Hopefully this summer I will learn the secret of being content. I should know this by now, but I have a thick head sometimes. :-P I want to be able to say this at the end of my life and mean it.
 "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what is is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:11b-13
 So this summer one of my goals is to have as many special moments with Ben and Seth as I can and enjoy our time as a family of three. :-)

"For you formed my inward parts; You knitted me together in my mother's womb. I PRAISE YOU, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes so my unformed substance; in Your book were written every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them. How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with You..... Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!"  Paslm 139:13-18,23
  I have been thinking about these verses quite a bit the past few days and they have been very comforting to me with my hysteroscopy coming up this week. God was right there with me when I was being formed, he knit me together, He knows EVERYTHING about every single cell in my body. I was formed with a uterine septum on purpose. God always has a plan for everything in my life, this was not a mistake.
  I have been getting nervous about this surgery but I have also been trying to give those worries to God as I'm commanded to.  "The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."  Phillipians 4:5b-7  I am not to worry, I'm to trust and give thanks. And only when I trust will His peace come over me. Trusting is hard but I would much rather have peace then anxiety attacks. And if God has told me that he will carry my burdens, why should I try to take them back? Also, who am I to say how I should or shouldn't have been formed? "Oh, the depths of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgements and how inscrutable His ways! For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has been His counselor? Or who has given a gift to him that he might be repaid? For from Him and to Him are all things. TO HIM BE GLORY FOREVER. AMEN." Romans 11:33-36 When I look back I want to be able to say that I have been praising God throughout this experience.

Spring Cleaning-Week 1

One of my goals for this week is to get our bathroom spring cleaned using the fewest cleaners and chemicals as possible.
 Today while Seth was napping I did quite a bit and only used one cleaner: Lysol's toilet bowl cleaner. To wipe down the sink and outside of the toilet I used this http://www.norwex.com/category.php?lng=7&ctg=1&cnt=38 a Norwex cleaning cloth. This cloth is antibacterial and basically cleans itself  because it contains little pieces of silver in it. I have three,  one for the bathroom, kitchen and one for  the rest of the house.
 For the mirror and window this cloth is super amazing!! http://gleencloth.com/  No streaks left and no Windex or vinegar smell afterwards! Ben and I found this cloth last year at the Arts and Crafts show downtown Newaygo, I haven't used it very much because I hardly ever clean my windows, but every time I have used it I've been super impressed.
 I will be using Kaboom Shower, Tub and Tile cleaner, because our shower gets really oily and sticky. I would eventually like to try and find something that is more natural, but for now I'm happy with only two cleaners in the bathroom. :-)

I'm a goal and list loving person. The more lists I have the happier I am, however just because I have those lists does not mean that everything that I put down on them gets done. This makes me very sad. One of the purposes of this blog is to see if publicly sharing my list will help things to get done. So, here are some of my long term goals:

- to do God's will, to actively seek to know Him better and to share His love with others.

- to increase my knowledge in the following areas: christian marriage and femininity, biblical mothering, Real Food, natural birth, gluten-free cooking and baking, natural cleaning products and teaching music.

-to run a 25k in 2:30

-to run a marathon in 4:45-5:00